Mindless Mumblings..( A Fictional Story)

There was a lot that he forgot but did not want to forget. He is now in an  unexplainable unique mental state that is far beyond anyone's understanding. Haunting memories reminded him of the scent of her presence, her soft touch, her innocent and full smile with the upward curves of her lips and the smoothness of her silky and charming voice.. that used to touch his heart. He wished he was a poet to capture all what he experienced during those moments. Her voice her words still echo in his mind even today.All memories of her are still deeply imprinted on his mind just like the pages from a book.

The day he saw her for the first time ..the day they looked into each others eyes. They touch their hands..with such innocent and loving thoughts…and the day when she wore a sari..for the very first time. She took hours hoping to get ready to get few compliments from him. And he was so absent minded, sp engrossed in her beauty..he

failed to mention a single compliment for her. She thumped her feet in the ground, her lips were trembling, her fists were tightly closed,  her eyes were crying mixed  with anger and sadness..of course she fumed.

He still remembered every moment he spent with her, of which only two of them were in the silent witness ..no one else ..he always savored the sweet moment when he felt nervous and scared before hesitatingly  tried to kiss her soft full lips for the first time. Whereas, in response she so unhesitatingly,  willingly and innocently responded with a deep kiss on his lips ..he could never forget his hesitation and her innocence ....she was such a package of love, tenderness, innocence and ah…don’t even have right words to express and explain her

Today…it all seems so unreal..but he could not forget many things, including the words and  the vocals of the songs they used to love and sing together...  how could he forget…her first touch too  . how she used to fight with him..beating on his chest with her soft fists the fight and the love he still remember, he did not forget .. her letters immersed in his love as well the what he wrote all about the her in  countless romantic verses ..poems..love notes ..today..he still remember that you still held the key to his fancy diary where he used to jot down all his thoughts feelings that married his heart.. even today he remembered the lakes where they used to sit and  think about and where they often used to look in each others eyes and he used to feel so lost that he used to forget everything else around him and you used to laugh with a strange satisfaction in your eyes….. your eyes that still haunts him in his dreams .. so full of love ..so full of cravings of innocent sensuousness.

 Now ..he could not forget  those moments when they sometimes used to sit together near the lake at night during moonless nights, that they could not see each other but feel each others presence with the unsuccessful illusion of that they are able to read each others facial expressions .. especially after their touch of tender places and trying to seek acceptance to those feelings..

Do you really think that he forgot all that ..no…he can not ..can not even fathom to..rather having such hard time now facing reality that you are gone..not here to touch you ..and feel your presence..now he wants to sit in a moonless night again…his imagination try to picture you ..but can not..heart is full of emptiness and sadness for the loss of those lovely feelings …clamoring of his love and desire that will now stay unfulfilled in this life time! You’re gone..not just by distance but away from his heart…circumstances..    situations, not heart,  took you far away from him..